Hi my dear readers! I have an awesome post for you today! I asked a fabulous human named Brittany to write up a guest post for all of you. Brittany is such an inspiration, and the following post she wrote really hit home for me. I hope you all love it as much as I do! Now for Brittany…
It Wasn’t My Story to Write
“Remember who you are and what God expects you to Become.”
-Thomas S. Monson
There are many moments in life where I feel as if life has treated me as anything but fair. I know that there will be some reading this with a slight knowledge of my background, those who know it all too well, and those who have just learned of recent experiences.
A couple of years ago I was very young and naive, and as most of us are all at 19 (or think we are), I was “wise.” I had met a guy, dated for a month or so, was engaged not long after and married just a short 4 months later in a church. To my surprise…. I didn’t know him at all. Though thinking and feeling it was a right decision, to be honest…. I didn’t pray about it. I never had the confirmation or the blessings behind a decision I so carelessly had made. After months and months of learning that who I had thought I married wasn’t really that man after all (and without going into much detail), we were divorced.
At the time this had been one of the hardest trials I had ever faced; but let me give you a glimpse of the last few months of marriage where I gained my testimony.
It was recommended to me that I read the book “The Peace Giver.” Though I wasn’t much of a reader, and thinking there was nothing that I needed to change on my end, I read it. During the time of reading this book with every spare moment I had… I learned one of the most valuable lessons of all… We cannot change the actions of others, we can only improve and change ourselves. Here was where I began to find “me” again.
I stopped talking back, I stopped raising my voice, I stopped being angry. I never argued and all I learned to do was listen. I turned more to prayer, talks, scriptures and quotes for guidance, rather then the internet, News articles, and statistic pages. More and more I began to see that true happiness and love was found in the Gospel. My heart, more than anything, desired to be sealed in the Temple at the one year mark of being married. Well… It takes two people to desire the same things, and as much as I had wanted, it wasn’t his desire. Though other circumstances had caused things to play out the way it did, I never lost faith in knowing that My Heavenly Father would help me see this through.
I will sometimes just sit and think a lot and like to think of myself as a “planner.” I like to have my year plan, my 5 year plan, my 10 year plan. I keep a list of names that I will someday name my kids, and places on the map I long to visit, and where I want to live and settle down. It’s funny though….. how these things never happen according to plan. If anything, one of the greatest things I have learned is that it isn’t my plan, and it isn’t my story, it is Heavenly Fathers.
He knows me far better than I know myself! The goals that I set, and the goals that we all set, are very wide stepping stones where our gracious Savior has come in to fill the spaces, add in more stones and pave the way. There is a very significant amount of peace that comes with the understanding, that He knows what is best. Even though I can sit and plan my future and the outcome of my life, Heavenly Father knows me and he knows what he wants me to become. I can do that my way, or his…. and I will be honest, his path and his plan and the story he has for me comes with many challenges, trials and hardships. There is suffering and heartache, bad days, times when you want to quit, and moments that seem so unfair, but I wouldn’t have it another way.
Yes, I have had life shifting trials, and yes in the MOMENT I can be a little resentful and a angry because I am human…. but I have to remember that it isn’t my story to tell. Our Savior is the author, writer and the illustrator for each and everyone of us. I am not saying these things to give up and not plan, because we have to do our part. Just keep in mind that with the things we want to do, Christ will connect the dots in a better path.
Although I can try to write the pages, and illustrate the pictures, it will never be as grand, as beautiful or near as perfect as the story My Heavenly Father has for me.